.....

i've lost control today
everything i've kept burried inside
came rushing to the surface

i had a plan
i want to change who i was
create a life as someone new
someone without the past
without the pain
someone alive
but it's not that easy
the bad things stay with you
they follow you
you can't escape them
as much as you want to
all you can do is be ready for the good
so when it comes
you invite it in
because you need it
at least..i need it

i thought there was hope
that somewhere deep inside