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Wanna be home!

by mr shy on sunday, 21st august 2011 at 21:58

canterbury, kent. 

ma, sepuy nak balik.. =( 

.b.l.u.r.n.e.s.s.~.

 Kanda Tuah is in blur~

 

19.186 hour
Feb 10th, 2011

Canterbury, South East England.

i feel like i want to write something and get my blog updated. yet i have nothing concrete in my head to write on. there are so much things lingering in my mind making me confuse. so much things to take care of, so much problems to handle and less time to enjoy life. sigh~

btw, there is a song that keeps resounds in my ears. a new song by auburn; all about him. at least i have something to enjoy while trying hard solving all those problems right? i will work hard and will always smile! =)

......

nape saya jadi lemah camni

nape saya hilang semangat

nape emosi saya x stabil lately

=(

I´m too shy to ask ...
I´m too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I´m thinking about

Taking the easy way out ... 

.d.u.d.u.d.u.~.

If You're Not The One  

"If you're not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If you you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?"

those excerpts are taken from Daniel Bedingfield song's lyric, if you're not the one. well, those excepts came across my mind just now~ haha! nape tetiba layan lagu jiwa ni? gile hape?



=.=!

 

muda muda dulu~ hihi! 

.g.o.i.n.g. .b.a.c.k.

my second post in one night!

feeling like throwing all my possessions into luggage and going back home. haih, life is getting complicated each and every day. im not whining! just that, sometimes i feel like my life is bizarre more than others. me now miss my innocent life, where problems are not big issue, smiling is an every day routine, laughing with no regret and seize the day to the fullest. 

i had a chat with a friend of mine just now. i realised how happy i was back then. i miss walking down the lane to my dorm, having some meggi mee outside the co-op, talking rubbish and laughing all night long. i miss my friend so much even i smiled reading their updates on FB. haih, i wish i could do this ; i'm going back home peeps!

.l.a.t.e. .n.i.g.h.t. .s.t.o.r.y.~.

penah dapat pengalaman cenggini?

sedang anda tengah asyik melayan FB pada lewat malam, bersendirian ditemani rintik rintik ujan, berguling di atas tilam empuk dengan lampu terpadam, anda mendapat chat dari seseorang yang tidak anda kenali.

lantas anda berfikir~ "hantu mana lak ni?"

niat di hati mahu aja tekan punat x chat box tersebut.namun, datang pula satu link~maka hati ini tertanya tanya.apakah itu? darah muda katakan.with bold heart, i opened that link in a new tab! guess what?

GAMBAR POCHONG! shit man!!

sedang aku yang time tuh duk bersimpuh di atas katil, jatuh tertiarap! terkejut punya pasal. gampang punya gambar! shiall betol manusia yang hantar gmbar tuh. percaya ah! kalo dia ada depan aku time tuh, nescaya aku kerjakan dia sampai dia yg jadik pochong! berdebah tol!! phew~~ hilang kemachoan aku! chiss!

but before i went to sleep, i realized sumthing. how did i handled the situation in calmness.hahha. dalam cuak melihat photo tersebut, aku sempat berfikir tentang apa yg aku harus lakukan. with brave heart, i close the tab, shut down my lappy n called a friend of mine to get me distracted from thinking bout dat picture. tapi semalam seksa gak ah~ kol 3 baru boleyh tido..tsk.tsk.

nayh! kalo sesapa yg berani tuh,cuba lah! malm nih, kol 1 pagi, bukak lappy n go to the link! 

*p/s nina~ aku tahu ko baca post nih.tyme aku duk berFB ngn hang la aku dpat pic ni.hang pon cuba keyh!

atoiii chek mek molekk=P

nayh~

gmbar budak cute=P

(maaf la~ x sanggup nak upload gmbar tuh! (**!)) 

.a.n. .e.a.s.y. .r.o.a.d.

would you lend me your shoulder for me to cry on?

it hasn't been an easy road for me. it will never be an easy one..

h.a.t.e.~.

okeyh. i hate this feeling.badly. someone please take it away from me~ 

s.a.y.a......

diam.saya bosan.

s.i.l.e.n.t. m.o.d.e.~.

oh yes! i'm sensitive. so why? 

i'm not made of stone.

i am a normal human being  gifted with feelings by god..

so what? i shouldn't cry because i am a guy?

my tears shouldn't drop just because i am a male?

bullshit!~

don't barely judge my tears. i'm not crying for stupid things.

 

**silent mode**

it reminds me of rumah bakti..i miss you all dik! bila nak jumpa lagi yer~

o.h. m.a.s.a.~.

pejam celik pejam celik..dah masuk pertengahan Februari. masa memang terasa laju berjalan. lebih lebih lagi di semester terakhir. ditambah pulak dengan program tambahan yang tak pernah pernah habis. masuk je kuliah lepas cuti ni, program memang full! kalau robot pun boleh berlaku litar pintas, lebih lebih lagi di papan litar kepala. lepas satu program, satu program yang lain pulak menanti. pembentangan penyelidikkan numerical study, KOT (kejohanan olahraga tahunan), SBE (school base experience) which will take place on the first and second week of march..and many more..persoalannya, dimanakah masa untuk saya bersedia for final xm which will take place on dis upcoming may? jawapannya..mati lah saya~

di awal awal semester, boleh lah dikatakan rajin mengulangkaji pelajaran. mana tidak nya. resolusi tahun baru ditambah dengan kelapangan waktu membuatkan semangat diri berkobar kobar.tapi malang, semangat itu hanya datang sekilas lalu. bila assignments mula menerjah masuk, waktu terasa pendek. masa banyak tebakar menghadap lapppy..(konon kononya menyiapkan esaimen padahal rancak bersosial di rangkaian sosial). dan sekarang saya berasa amat gelisah.kenapa? kerana saya merasakan masa mencemburui saya! saya perlukan masa untuk mengatur hidup saya menjadi lebih sistematik. i need an ample time preparing for my final xm. namun, dengan kehadiran program program penting mampukah saya bersedia? (btw that is rhetorical question, u dont have to answer it^^)

disaat saat begini, tatkala otak tengah berserabut, perkara penting yang perlu dilakukan ialah menenangkan diri. no worries shy! u can do it~ hahha..cilakak. aku memang berdebar la.huh!

by the way my dear friends? have u guys prepared for ur any upcoming xms? regardless of what xms they are..please be prepare!^^~

m.y. h.e.a.d. b.u.r.n.s.. u.p.~.

peluh dingin mula berlari lari anak.kepala dah mula panas! terperap setengah jam di dalam buat otak aku menggelegak..sejuk penghawa dingin tidak mengurangkan panas yang aku rasa..hati nie dah macam kecewa semacam..sebab? my lappy buat hal lagi~gampang semacam lappy tuh!lately selalu bikin hati aq rungsing~entah lah..selalu jer dia bikin hal..aq dah x mampu nak berfikir...lebih baik aq berjoging ke tasik UM..dats is better i guess!

2 rounds circled the lake made my abs cramped~ bila dah tak larat nak jog lagi, kaki dihala pulang ke kampus..sekali lagi, fikiran aku merewang memikirkan pasal lappy tu..

'kenapa la time ni dia nak merajuk..time esaimen tengah bertimbun menunggu masa untuk disiapkan!

'hargh! lantak lah!'

sampai di bilik, tempat pertama yg dituju..my lappy desk! punat on lappy ditekan..segala butang berkelip kebiruan menandakan lappy dihidupkan..seminit~skrin masih lagi gelap...dua minat~ sama, tiada tanda tanda yang ianya akan idop..5 minit~ aq menyampah! lantak ko la lappy!! shiall!

kepala kembali panas, huh! darah memecut memenuhi setiap rung ceruk kapilari darah ~ aq tak mahu setan terus 'memanaskan' aku..lebih baik aq beredar ke bilik air..mandi! itu lebih baik~

i knew my lappy's problem when a friend of mine came to my room..after a short checked..he confirmed, my lappy doesnt have problem with the screen..but with mother board! heck!! what was dat? wat is the hell is mother board? shoot~ i dont want to noe about dat..i just want to noe weather it can be fixed...

my friend's answer...

'bole je baiki..tapi at least ko kena ada RM 500.00 to fix dis"

heck! another problem came after another..how im gonna find dat 'huge' sum of money..yes my allowance is already in..but i save dat money for something else!..its not for dis crap thinggy!

lantak la ape nak jadi~ esok, digital mall jadik tumpuan utama aku! my main focus..baiki lappy!..ohwwhhh..

dah! cukup pasal lappy! lets talk about sumthing else~

=)

i bought some presents for my sisters!..hahahah~ x sabar nak bagi..especially kat my youngest sister..mesti dia suka

h.i.d.u.p. d.i. g.u.n.u.n.g.~.

kalo aku kaya~ nak je aku buang lappy ni dalam tasik hijau UM..tapi x leh jugk..sayang giler kot kat menatang alah nama laptop ni^^..makin sayang makin pulak dia wat hal..dari petang tadi aq duk menjana minda memikirkan masalah skrin lappy nie..naik belok tengkuk aku duk usha benda alah tuh! 

masalah dia bukan kecik..masalah yang rumit, aq cuba selongkar balik hotak aku kenapa lappy ni boleh jadik macam nie..tapi gagal~ sebab setahu haku, aq jaga lappy nie lebih dari menatang minyak yg penuh..kalo ada bini pon, aq rasa lebih lagi aq jaga lappy ni dari bini~ hahaha^^

pikir punya pikir..aq jadik bingung..shial~ mana aq nak cekup dwet nak baiki benda alah tuh? nak mintak ngn FAMA segak lak..hari2 mintak dwet ..umor dah meningkat dewasa, tapi masih lagi bergantung ngn mak bapak~ malu lak haku..huh!

takkan aq nak korbankan dwet elaun aq yang bulan januari tuh? belom lagi dapat..takkan dah kena 'bakar' kot? haih..masalah tol la hidup ngn teknologi nih..nak beli satu masalah, nak kena jaga pon satu masalah..kalo rosak lagi la masalah!.argh!! nak pegi hidup kat gunung la mcm nih!!