.t.a.p.i.

tetiba rasa nak marah

nak baling semua barang keluar tingkap

nak baling batu kat cermin biar berderai

nak hempas my iphone desk yang rosak tu biar berkecai

nak sepak org jahat laju laju 

nak koyak semua kertas yang ada atas meja

nak pecah pecahkan hadiah

nak jadi gila pukul bantal biar keluar kapas

nak jerit kuat kuat biar hilang suara

nak lari jauh jauh sampai habis tenaga

nak berdiri bawah shower biar sampai demam

tapi

i want to restrain myself from doing all those. there is no use of me feeling angry. i should learn something from the past incident. not holding grudge of it.

 

peace no war!

.s.i.x. .p.a.c.k.s.

developing six sexy packs on abs and charming muscle chest on a skinny body is not an easy task, i admit.=.=! i've been going to gym and participating in the swimming lesson for this particular aim, but no sexy muscles are likely appearing i observe. i even controlled my diet; drank milk , took eggs for breakfast and i only ate chicken meat! 

well, it would be a lie if me not jealous with those who have six packs on their abs. i would say, im eager to death to have those abs, unfortunately i need to work hard for them. haha! .i read somewhere that  a man's body would be the best at the age of 23. me now in my early twenty, meaning i have an ample time to develop any muscle that i like! so, not to worry, i will have them.soon!

  
oh no, my abs is wasn't this bad =.=! it was far more better than this. aha!

  for the current time, they are showing some shapes.sexy shapes of course! ehe =p

omo omo! (^^!)

.g.o.i.n.g. .b.a.c.k.

my second post in one night!

feeling like throwing all my possessions into luggage and going back home. haih, life is getting complicated each and every day. im not whining! just that, sometimes i feel like my life is bizarre more than others. me now miss my innocent life, where problems are not big issue, smiling is an every day routine, laughing with no regret and seize the day to the fullest. 

i had a chat with a friend of mine just now. i realised how happy i was back then. i miss walking down the lane to my dorm, having some meggi mee outside the co-op, talking rubbish and laughing all night long. i miss my friend so much even i smiled reading their updates on FB. haih, i wish i could do this ; i'm going back home peeps!

.b.o.x.i.n.g. .d.a.y.

 boxing day!

aha! it was something new for me. clothes on sale, discounts, student's price and all totally drove me crazy. ehe! =p . i was in madness recently to be honest, and today's incident proved it. i woke up early in the morning, walked to the town without gloves on ( it made my fingers hurt tho! i mean seriously hurt!) and the best part was i have  spend more than half of my salary from the part-time job that i've done at Clinton on coats and trousers! 

well, Topman has caught my attention the most. at Topman itself, i've spend more than 60 pounds for two coats! (don't blame me for spending too much, i really want them!). haha! 

the first coat, or should i call it leisure jacket (as Topman defines it that way) was the first jacket that i bought. it looks casual and stylish as well! hehe. the second coat, a trench coat which cost me 70 pounds initially, was the most expensive coat  that i've bought so far. yet because of boxing day, i only pay half of the price!

oh ya, apart from Topman, H&M is the second store where i lost my money; again, in a huge amount! haha~ i managed to grab two fit trousers and a winter coat! hoho. 

and not to worry, im regretting it. =p

*p/s : i made a promise to have a photo shooting session tomorrow morning with friends of mine. lets look forward for the outcome! haha!

.n.a.r.c.i.s.s.i.s.m.!.

there are times when i feel like being in madness! frisky all over the body!  haha!

well, being crazy once in a while is accepted i think.

its me whom decides which way i want to look like. no one can deny that! =p

 oke! i seriously feel all frisky tonight. something unexplainable! haha. the feeling, is great i must say. =p. it's been a while since i last captured the last picture of myself; pretend to be 'good-looking' of course! . 

 

the last picture reminds me of someone! have a guess! hehe =]

.a.n. .e.n.d.!.

current temperature;  0 degree. it's chilling cold outside, white snow is melting and me now in my warm room, pouring my heart out on my blog. it seems winter is coming to its peak and  colder temperature is expected. many people say, the worst days during winter are in January and i'm afraid it is true. it's now December, still i feel like living in a refrigerator. seven days are in queue before new year comes to take it's place and by that time i'll be expecting my second academic term ; Lent term to begin. well, 2010 is likely comes to an end. there were lots of things happened, some which i felt great with, some with joyous memories, and yes, there were some which i suppressed from making my mind disarray. yet, there were tremendous good things which stick tightly to mind.

feels like sharing those pictures.

new in town. it was great back then. enjoying the cool breeze in September while the sun shines happily and spending time with no restriction. lol! =p 

i shall remember the night when i turned crazy. it was super-duper great at that time. i enjoyed myself to the fullest, sang my heart out, ate happily and danced in madness!

 

my first snow in England. it was great i must say. haha! =p

 here's the video. enjoy aye!

glasshopper

i've bought a new book again, with an unfamiliar title "Glasshopper" which means i. a person or thing that shift position or character without warning. ii. a fleeting, translucent object. iii. a person who balances precariously between sobriety and intoxication by Isabel Ashdown. Well, this is the book which has caught my attention while i was at a charity shop in the town. I've started reading it, slowly, as  im now working as a part time worker at  Clinton's card in the town of Canterbury. yet to be honest, i don't know when i'll be able to finish reading this book. it seems i spend my time mostly watching online movie and sleeping. i barely got time to read book nowadays~ sigh~~

glasshopperer

Isabel Ashdown's brilliantly structured novel weaves the story of 13-year-old Jake in the 1980s with his rebellious mother Mary's journey from the 1960s. The book is a poignant study of the effect of alcoholism on families and a hopeful testimony to the enduring resilience and optimism of youth. An extract won the 2008 Mail on Sunday Novel Competition; judges Fay Weldon and Sir John Mortimer describing the writing as magnificent. From the suburban disorder of 1980s southern England, 13-year-old Jake watches his world unravel as his father and older brother leave the family home, and his mother increasingly takes solace in drink. Even as Jake outwardly shrugs off doubts surrounding his paternity, the question hangs over him like an invisible spectre. As the perspective weaves between Jake and his mother, Mary, we see brief glimpses of her genteel beginnings, and follow Jake's personal odyssey from the terraced streets of Portsmouth to the French Dordogne where he uncovers the secrets of another generation.