s.u.r.v.i.v.a.l.~.

another great day came to me today. i did spent my day productively with my fellow friends. we did loitered around, laughed at funny things happened and enjoyed walking along the night market's stalls. but, there was another bad thing. we had spent up to hundreds! me my self spent nearly rm250 for stuffs which i think were not so important .sheet!~

some thoughts came to my mind when i saw a foreigner outside of sogo. he was waiting for public to donate some money.from the notes he wrote on a board, he mentioned that he is from russia and he has finished his money.(im not sure whether he spent his money to the last coins or he misplaced the money. or maybe his money was stolen).  the bad luck came to him when he has no money at all for his ticket back to russia.my friends and i came to a decision to help him by donating some money. of course he was overwhelming with the donation. i can see it his face. he was so happy and kept repeating saying thanks in russian. (i think so~ because i did not understand russian^^). and for me, i cant help myself from pondering his situation. yet,it actually worth pondering . what would i do if I'm in his shoes? what would be the worst scenario if i'm alone in foreigners' land and i'm lost? i have no guts to face this alone. then, i started to think of my future study in UK.my euro trip's plan. i cant even imagine when i am there alone and i come to my last penny. what would i do? i will doom.

still, people always says.' we will survive whenever we are in troubles '. more, when we are in someone else place, we'll find ways for survival.frankly speaking, i believe in that. i did survived until today~if that russian's guy could survive, why couldn't i?..yes i will!

Gloria Gaynor » I Will Survive Lyrics

First I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me

Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive

It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me 

**takziah buat aini amirah dan keluarga atas pemergian nenekanda tercinta.semoga rohnya ditempatkan dalam kalangan insan lindungan Allah.